"Please Don't call me no more...." @ 3:46am

"Please Don't call me no more...." @3:46am
Ok
Ok
Ok I won't ...
What a terrible thing to text.
But is he a Bad person a Bad guy. No. He isn't. He's just guy expressing how he feels.
Does like me. Yes he does.
Does he care bout me Yea. Somewhat I'd say. Yes there's. Something bout me that's intriguing to him.
Does he want to write me off from his life completely. NO he doesn't.
He wants to just be cool. Be friends. No emotions. No feelings No mushy. Shit. Nothing that pertains or implies Relationship.
Why not.
This isn't something he's able to "Nurture" @ this time In his. Life.
I work
I'm. Working
I'm @ work.
I'm taking care of business
I'm outta town
I have a client. Ima call you back.
Ima talk to you later.
Chi Chi. No for real Ima hit u back. When I'm in the clear.
My job is not like any other job.
Most people @ my job don't have successful. Relationships.
Most of them don't have relationships @ all
Its not that I don't want to. I am just not able to right now.
The weekdays I be running crazy.
This client that client.
This airport.
This Clear port
This city.
This town
This state
That state
NJ
los Vegas
Cincinnati
LA
Honduras
Alabama
I'm not usually in the citi. I'm usually in this country. That country.
I'm suprised when I met you. I had as much time as I did.
But now my schedule is really booked up.
What does this mean
Where does this leave ME
What does this make ME.
-the new girl with potential
-the fuck buddy
-the side chick.
-The Nobody
-The Slide
-The what
-The who
Who I am I to you
What am I to you
Do I mean anything
As a friend. As us just being cool
As a potential girlf friend. Wife mother of ur child/ children
Do I fit that criteria
Yes
No
Maybe so
Never
Hell no
Hell to the No
Or is it too soon to tell
According to you.
Do u like me. Yes I do.
Do you think of me
Do you wana kiss me
Did you miss me.
Are you in love with me
Do u love me
Do love me little bit. Like u said on the bus. After many drinks
Do just have love for me
Come on now Chi Chi what talking bout ?
You know I don't speak that language
Do yern for me as I do you.
I guess not.
Huh?
What does this mean
I have NO fucking idea
Who am I.
What are we
What are we doing
We cool ... We Friends
Ooooh ok
Like I know what the fuck that really means.
Today is 1 month away from it being 1 year.
To me. A person that wears their Heart on their sleeve
A hopeless Romantic
The fool
The chick no man takes seriously
Yea I know
Men only treat you they way you allow them to
This means a lot to me 1 year. For a person that was totally alone. No dates not many booty calls. No nothing
But anyway
Am I beautiful yes
Am I pretty. Yup
Am I smart. Book smart. Street smart a wee bit
Do I understand Slang. Definitely not
Am I Sexy. You better believe it. I put the S in Sexy.
Am I confident. Hell To the yea.
Do I love myself. Without a doubt
Why am. I torchering myself
My heart
Putting myself through such agony
Asking all these questions
Putting tatoos on my body.
Trying to justify. Or prove
My love to a person
Hasn't. Won't. Can't. Isn't ready to love ME back they way I love him
The way I deserved to be loved
He loves my thick curvy silhouette
My 4 5 6 6.5 6.8 inch stiletto heels
My pierced nipples
My freckles
My face without makeup
My lovely long lashes
My lips
My eyes
My Drive
Yes yes he certainly loves my drive.
Drive for what
Can I drive. A car? Nope well kinda. I have driven.
O yea. My drive to succed. To snatch life by the balls or the lovely breast. N say BITCH your MiNE.
yup that drive.
Ima teen mom
Gave birth @ 13 years old.
I graduated jr high school
High school. 1 year early
I got my AAS degree in Fashion Design n Merchandising.
I own my own company Styles by chimere I own my own Model Agency Chimere Models. The Most Diverse Beauties
I'm versatile
I'm sexxy
I'm out going.
I'm 26
I'm sexual
I'm freaky
I'm beautiful
I look great
I dress to kill
Gurrrl I be killing them
Ima go getter
I am my sons 1st teacher
Jonmere
Jon jon
Lu La
The Lu
I am great mom
I pretty good cook
Does he Love all these Qualities I possess
Yes
Does he love ME. Is He in Love with ME NO
Will he ever be.
Probably not.
Do I have a Man No.
Do I want a Man. Yes
Am I in love Yes
Is Someone in Love with me. NO.
Do men find me attractive. Yes
Do men wana Fuck me. yes they sure do .
Do they wana get to know. Me all of me.
He did
Do they wana know my goodies. Certainly
Do they wana be in a Realtionship with me No
Does he wana be in a relationship. Nope. Well at least not anymore. Or not @ this time.
What have I learned.
I learned never to love before the other shows love. First.
I learned to never wear my heart on my sleeve
I learned. Show no emotion
Hold back.
Do on to others as they do on to you.
Am I a BITCH. Nope.
Can I be A BITCH. I sure as hell will be. From here on out.
Thanxx BATMAN.