HIM & Him... WHOM I LOVE

they make me happpy ...

my Lu & my Cinnamon ....

it seems they both are not that into me

he hates me

he intimidates me

it seems im trying to prove to both that i am the perfect mom & perfect woman

my family critizes my parenting...they think iam unfit

this is oh so beyond hurtful .... its killig me... stressing me.... stress kills inside and out!

him & him get along so well...

im fighting my mom for my son

im fighting him for more time

its exhausting, its worth the fight

since i was 13 giving birth to my lu .... i have fighting wars busting down doors to make sure i succeed and the failure is not where in sight.

since june 4 2010..i cant imagine my world without him.... he too brightens my my day....

they both are my air that i breathe....

yet on this saturday i sit alone wondering where they both are

heart broken

heart ache

frustration

worry

and soo much more

did they both find someone to replace me?

i guess loving them with ALL my heart just isnt enough?

broken hearted

What kinda Friends are We?

I don’t wana be "friends"with him anymore
because you be ignoring me as if im not important
So I figured if im not important
Then I will just be alone
And if I am important to you or matter somewhat then you needs to act like it
I HATE FEEELING LEFT OUT ….. IT’S THE WORST FEELING EVER
i see ... IT GOT A WEE BIT UGLY
I HONESTLY thought you didn’t care and would be like o well ok noprob
But you didn’t instead you wanted to meet up and talk about why I came to my decision
Then I asked myself does he actually care about me being in his life?????

but be in your life how
i am not really go with the flow kinda chick , when my feelings are involved

i dont know why is it that when i like some one i need very specific details
all of a sudden the 5 w's come into place

id say it could just the genuine concern for that person
not at all to control them just to be IN THE KNOW at all times
may sound weird
but her it is what it is

i have been in the presence of dudes before that i had absolutely no concern for.
when in their presence i was there and when i left it was gone
they didnt cross my mind til ... they called me or i felt the urge for a lil something something
i was clear on the type of relationship we were keeping ... to the KEY IS TO BE "CLEAR"

I Just Want Him ... Nothing Else

i jus t wanna see you
i just wanna kiss you
id just like to sit @ the pier
eat fruit
plums, peaches, apricots, white necturs ,
just chilll

he likes to do just Nothing
i wana do just Nothting only with him

i miss you

i wana stay home
chillaxxin
drink pinapple red bull n my lil touch of coco ciroc
make ziti
make breakfast in the morning
eat one Salmon Croquette :-)
take a walk on the beach
just lay in the bed
just as long as i am with you
i just want him
nothing else

i dont wana argue
can we start over
meet up where we mwt
introduce our selves again

just us two

is it soo bad that....
i wana spend all my spare time with you


yes according to some this may be a fantasy or un realistic
i just wana go to work
come home cook with or for my hunny my boo, our family
then go to bed together recap our day
then go to sleep
and start our ay in the morning

to me everythingi normally do
is just better when we are together

perhaps one day he will WANT to do all these things with me .......
or is it too late
has he gone away forever?
i love him .. i am in love with him
i love you
i wish you believed in my love

someday

Someday you'll love me.
Someday you'll care.
Someday you'll treasure the moments we've shared.
Someday you'll learn, love is not a game.
Then you'll realize, I'm not the same.
My heart will have left you, my love will have died.
Then you'll realize the tears I've cried.
Someday you'll love, someday you'll care, someday you'll want me and I won't be there.

THINGS THAT PROVE HOW MUCH YOU LOVE HIM*

12..when you think about him,your heart skips a beat.
11..you'll read his texts over and over again.
10..you'll walk really slow together.
9..you'll sometimes pretend to be shy around him.
8..by listening to his voice you'll smile for no reason.
7..you'll wait for hours online just to talk to him even if its only 5 minutes.
6..you'll start to listen to slow meaningful songs.
5..He'll became all that you really think about.
4..you worry about him talking to other girls.
3..you think about those three words all day long.
2..you will do anything for him.
1..while reading this,there was only one person in your mind the whole timE

i love love love him

loving the way .......

I love the way you look at me,
I love the things you say,
I love the way you make me smileIn your own special way.
I love the way you say my name, Your voice tranquil and sweet,
I love the way i lose my voice Whenever our eyes meet.
I love the way you hold my hand, Your soft touch i desire,
I love the way you kiss my lips And fill my heart with fire.
Off all the things in all the world, I swear to you it's true,
I've never loved a single thing As much as i love you.......... other than my Son & Fashion

Kisses

Kiss on the belly:Im ready.
-Kiss on the forehead: I want to be with you for the rest of my life.
-Kiss on the cheek: We're friends.
-Kiss on the hand: I adore you.
-Kiss on the neck: I want you,now!! -Kiss pn the shoulder: Your perfect
-Kiss on the lips: I love you.
READ WHAT EACH GESTURE MEANS:
-Holding hands: We definitely like eachother.
-Touching on the butt: You're mine.
-Holding you tight pressed against eachother: I want you.
-Looking into eachother's eyes: I like you for you, for who you are.
- Playing with hair: Let's fool around.
-Arms around waist: I like you too much to let go.
- Laughing while kissing: I am completely confortable with you.
ADVICE: if you were thinking about someone while reading this you're definitely in love